Reading
this recent New York Times article, and talking to Matt about it, really got me thinking.
As someone who has struggled with wanting to lose weight since leaving high school (and really, even before that) who will soon have a Master's degree in the field of Health Behavior, I've actually thought about this in my own life.
Overall I eat a quite healthy diet. I am a semi-vegetarian (I eat fish), and I am careful to eat fruits and vegetables. I don't eat fast food (maybe some fries on the run once every 6 months or so), and I have cut back drastically recently in the amount of milk and cheese that I let myself eat.
I have historically struggled with sugar though. I love sweets. I used to love to drink Coca Cola (a habit being with my husband hasn't helped), eat chocolate, ice cream has had a hold on me in recent summers, and cookies, cake, you name it - I loved it.
Days before my most recent birthday I ate an ice cream sandwich of my husband's from the fridge. After eating it, I felt disgusting. I started to reflect on what led me to pick up that ice cream sandwich, unwrap it, and eat it. There was no reason. I had absolutely no reason to eat it. And what's worse, I didn't even feel good after eating it.
It was then that I decided sugar COULD NOT have this "power" over me anymore. I decided that after my birthday, I would not eat dessert until Christmas. There have been a few minor exceptions along the way. Some very low-fat frozen yogurt, some pudding a friend made, half of a slice of pumpkin roll at Thanksgiving. I also stopped drinking soda with sugar.
Setting all these restrictions on myself has had me thinking, what the hell is the point of all those things I was eating. I know what they taste like, I know exactly what I am in for when I pick it up. I also know that there is NO health benefit to them. They don't provide long term benefit, they make you feel good for what, like, 5 or 10 minutes?
I have thought about food a lot the last few months. And I am by no means saying it is easy, I still like sugar, it tastes good to me. I am learning to rationalize it away though. I am learning to use moderation when I do choose to indulge. A friend made one of my favorite cakes recently for a party, and being that it was a Christmas party, I said ok and had a piece. One piece. Later I wanted a pop because I was exhausted and wanted a little bit of caffeine to help get me through the night, but there was no diet pop. I almost said what the hell, I am just going to have this Dr. Pepper, it's just one night. But then, I stopped and reminded myself that's another 140(?) calories. Not worth it. Instead I poured a glass of water, and went to sit down.
By no means do I think this breakthrough means that I will be perfectly in control from hear on out, but thinking about reasons for doing things, and thinking about how you feel and think about them (metacognition anyone?), is important.
So even if you don't think about taking 30 bites of a food before eating it, every time you're eating a guilty pleasure food, think about why you're eating it. Does the benefit outweigh the cost? Do you need 140 extra grams of sugar? Do you need the extra grams of fat? Do you need the second cookie - what does it give you? A moment of happiness. How are you going to feel next time you are trying on jeans?